It's been a busy few weeks, getting ready for the start of a new school year. I've changed grade levels so there was a sense of worry and stress about the start of the school year that I haven't felt since my first year. It was not a nice feeling and I didn't really want to share it with many people. But now, having survived five days of school in my new grade level, I can tell you that the wise old words are true: "There is nothing to fear but fear itself."
I had an emotional end of the week, an old hurt was revealed to a friend and I relived the hurt, although with the distance of years to soften the blow. I reread some things I wrote at the time and realized that it's so easy to let our best intentions go. I wanted to spend more time with friends, I wanted to cherish my friendships more, I wanted to live the life I dreamed of. Almost five years have passed and those are all feelings I still have, dreams I have not fulfilled. So, I am recommitting to this quest. To be the person I want to be.
To that end, I'm going to spend some quiet reflective time with a book that it's my New Year's Resolution to get through: Life Makeover. It's almost September...and I'm still on Week 10. Time to actually keep my resolution to myself, and make myself a better friend along the way.
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